Adam's Log
Entry #2
Date: 2099.002

I was to find out that this particular session was going to be something that I would not forget. The previous session that I had, I told my mistress that I wanted to try something that I had never done before. It was actually the one thing (as in particular act) that interested me in visiting a mistress.

I told her that I wanted to be in a position of total submission and humiliation. I wanted her to enslave me like she hadn't before. I was unaware of what I was asking, but at the same time quite excited in anticipation. Since it was going to be two whole days before my next session, you can imagine what the anticipation was going to build up to.

She told me that, unlike many slaves, I had a way about me that was different. She told me that most slaves, (even when weeding out men that are just in it for the expected sex) that most are in it for the physical gratification, and not the mental. Most want to try some things that are, to say, mild. Not that what I was about to take part in, is painful at all. For me, the pain was not there. It was the pleasing of my mistress that was my only concern. And if in the process that I got something out of it, that was just a nice byproduct.



The Saint Andrew's Cross (or the X-Cross) is named for the type of cross that Saint Andrew was martyred on. This is the type of cross most commonly used in BSDM. This was to be my experience.

This particular session went right to the heart of the matter. Bound at the wrists, ankles, waits, and neck (not in all cases, but this one) rendered me, nearly incapable of any movement. In this position (slightly off the ground) the weight of one's body, weighs down because of gravity, obviously. So I had to make not only the effort to keep my body upright (otherwise the weight of your body can suffocate you) I also had to endure (for the lack of a better word, since that denotes displeasure) the punishment of my mistress.

It is quite an experience, to put your whole self, and really your life into the hands of someone else. That is a form of trust that I have found in only one other woman to this day, Mrs. Warlock.

As I concentrated on the commands from my mistress, I found that I thought less about my predicament and more on the entire experience. It livened something that I didn't know was there. Something that she had awoken (as she had done many times before) inside me.

Some may not understand what it is that would allow a man to put himself in that situation with a woman. But there was a bond of trust that we had built up, so that I didn't even give it a second thought. It wasn't a big deal to me, because I knew that she would not do anything to me I didn't want. It was a reciprocal relationship, just as all good relationships should be, no matter what kind they are.

As I mentioned, I have found that trust in only one other woman, Mrs. Warlock. And she could crucify me anytime. So I'll just patiently wait.

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

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Is there something that we have inside of ourselves that tells us what is beauty and what is not?  Is there something that we must tell ourselves to recognize that?

She waits on someone.  Maybe a him maybe a her.  But there she stands waiting for that someone.  A expression of affection, or a timid touch that leads to something else.  But whatever it is, there she stands, wondering what it is that she has that is desirable.

Do we tend to take for granted what it is that sensuality has to offer?  Something that we don't realize until we are without it.

Feeling the warm embrace of someone else's body.  The tender touch that lights our body on fire.  Maybe it is the simple caresses of his hand across her chest.  Touching and teasing her.  The gentle caress of her nipples between his fingers,  Perhaps the pleasing thought of his legs wrapped around her.  Searching with want for the parts of her body that she never knew where there.  Something that he awakened with his touch.  Something that brought her to a feeling of euphoria that was not within her that had been untouched until then.

She could quite imagine the serenity of the perfect moment of two bodies becoming one in an act that most people don't understand fully.  It is not just the presence of a man inside of her, it becomes so much more than that.  It is an emotional dependence that two people share when pleasuring with a physical act.  The sensations of touch and tease are just a part of the whole picture.  A picture that when concentrating on just the physical part is left half painted.  And an unfinished picture cannot be truly appreciated. 

Just imagine  . . .

Two bodies laying together, sharing each other's heat.  The presence of someone holding you so close that your hearts could meld into one.  While the physical presence makes your body feel so alive that there is nothing to do but sing vocal praises to that presence.  And your body's reaction to this presence heightens and livens the act so much more.  You start to move in unison.  Like a drummer and his drums you beat together in perfect harmony.  As if, even being the first time, you have practiced this for eons.  That is an act that not just any two persons can have.  This is what she waits for.

That her moans of pleasure will be recipricated in kind.  He can tap into her like no other.  Making her feel the sensations that make her want to wake the neighbors.  That is something there.  The plunging, the thrusting, the movements of two bodies together.  Sharing each other's sweat and blood.  Sharing each other's bodily fluids.  The perfection of the well oiled machine.  The lubricant of the gods.  This is what she waits for.

Will she find this presence that she looks for?  Is there such a sexual nirvana that can be reached?  Will she scream for him to fill her body with his sexual potion?

 

The realization of my dream (since even before marriage) is finally a reality.  Thanks to pioneers like William Shatner and others who have made the concept of cheap airfare not only available to the common man, but also entertaining.

So with that said, in October of 2009, when Mrs. Warlock and I will be celebrating our 10th marriage anniversary, we will be visiting Japan.  Yes my long obsession with Japanese culture will culminate with being able to actually interact and immerse myself in their culture, in their land.  How exciting!

Right now I am working on mastering the use of chopsticks.  It really isn't as difficult as it looks, you just have to keep doing it.  I have to get where I forget how to eat with a fork, because I am so use to chopsticks.

Sometime next year I will learn Japanese, and inform myself of their customs and culture, so that I don't offend anyone, and possible be a good representative of American tourists.  Why you ask?  Well we always complain that people that come to this country (whether to stay or visit) should speak English.  Well don't you think we should follow our own rule?