Do you think that people that don't feel anything are cold-blooded?

If can stare at someone's dead, lifeless body and not shed a tear, not let yourself feel one moment of weakness, are cold-blooded?

If a person just can't feel, are they heartless?

Some people deal in raw emotion. For them every decision and every action that they take is based on the particular emotion that they are feeling at the time. Whether it be a positive or a negative emotion.

Emotions are something that for some are hard to grasp. Not the concept, but the emotion itself. Grasping it and feeling it. And then using to for whatever purpose that it is intended for. The idea of emotions is quite simple. They are the base instincts and inner workings of the mind, displayed through the body. That they be physical body language, words, or expressions of the face. All of these display the emotions or instincts that the human mind harbours.

They say that emotions come from the heart. But the heart is just a functional organ of the body, that pumps blood so that the body can continue to live. Emotions come from the brain, just a different part then the logic.

So to disavow the concept that "men are from Mars and women are from Venus"; the more likely comparison would be that men are from Vulcan and women are from Earth. That's a Star Trek reference for those scratching your heads. Vulcan's based all their decisions on pure logic, there were no emotions in their equations. That has to be a pretty sweet deal. Can you imagine emotions never getting in the way of some of the most important decisions in one's life? From birth to death, if all decisions were based on logic, would that be bad?

Well there are two kinds of emotions, negative; hate, jealousy, covetessness, envy, spite, arrogance, and the such; and their are positive emotions; love (which can actually go both ways), happiness, pride, joy, and the such. So emotions have two sides. Although we all like feeling the positive emotions, are they worth having to deal with the negative ones? If we lived our lives through pure logic, would we miss the positive emotions that we like to experience? Or would it be worth it to be absolved of the negative as well?

Or would you rather not to be happy to not be sad? I sometimes think that would be okay.

I am usually not emotional. I like to think that I can be logical when it is needed. I can always be logical when it comes to almost everything in my life. Almost. There is one factor in my life that always seems to tap into my emotions. One factor, that every decision that I make that evolves around this factor, is decided by emotion. That factor is my wife. She is able to tap into my emotions like no one and nothing else. Whether they be negative or be positive. I rule all my decisions for her and about her based on my emotions. I just can't be rational when it comes to her. And I don't know why that is. And I don't know if that is always good either. Sometimes logic is needed, but all I can feel is emotions. Raw, overwhelming emotions. Why is that?

What should I do?

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

"You green-blooded Vulcan!"

Well I believe it is now safe to say that I do not have to worry about having children anymore. Thankfully I only have to do this once. Now that it is said and done, I can have sex with no consequence. That is the plus side and the result that I was looking for.

Funny thing is, they actually asked me why I wanted to get this done. And it's like "Duh! I don't want to have children anymore! Hello!" Anyway, they gave me some drugs through my IV so that I wouldn't feel anything. Funny thing was, because of my alcohol intake, I metabolized the drug to fast. I had gone through it before they even took me back for the surgery. The doc that does the drugs (I forget what they are called) had to give me a double dose right before they did the surgery. I told him (I guess under the influence of the drug) that I fibbed a bit on the amount of alcohol I regularly consume. He laughed and told me he figured that when I went through the first dose without even a buzz.

After that I guess I went to sleep. I woke up in my bed in the recovery room. Just me and my swollen balls. 8-)

It's not as bad as some might tell you. I don't have much pain at all. In fact, I never even filled the drug prescription that they gave me. I've just been taking Tylenol and Excedrin. And some whiskey too, that always helps. Been sleeping a hell of a lot too. And sitting in the bed, playing Hulk, when I am not sleeping. It's great, I actually have an excuse to play video games all weekend.

Well, I'm going to get out of here. This chair is a bit uncomfortable to sit in. My poor boys are screaming at me to lie down.

Yall take care and talk at you later.

I mad at myself at the moment. I have nothing to say but I always want to share. I don't know yet if it is my brain or my hands. Or that both are not wanting to communicate. Or maybe it is just that my creativity (as it has been called) is dry.

15 minutes later

Sorry got distracted watching "Bones". There was the girl on the show that was tied and bound. Her eyes were gouged out and her flesh ripped from her bones by wild ravenous dogs. That's some sick shit. Sounds like a good story. Why does my brain work on this sick level?

Disgusting things that are on television now. What I am just jealous I didn't think of that before I saw it? Probably.

another 15 minutes

So why can't I be the good guy. Why can't I write about the savior galloping in at the last minute to save the victim for certain and horribly horrific death?

now my son is watching hulk

That kinda makes me think. You know, how Bruce Banner was a really nice guy, but he had all this evil anger and violence buried in his soul, in the form of the Hulk. And all he could do was try to bury it further and further, but it didn't matter, the Hulk always got out. The evil always got out, no matter what he did. And the only person that could calm the evil was Betty.

Puny humans! Hulk smash!

If there is a god, my mind is his sick little joke.

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

"In that day the Lord with his sore and great and strong sword shall punish leviathan the piercing serpent, even leviathan that crooked serpent; and he shall slay the dragon that is in the sea." Isaiah 27:1

Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy. You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself. Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in. People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal. You are most compatible with: A and AB Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter

Hitler. I just couldn't pass this one up. I mean come on now, Britney Spears??? At least I was compared to Hitler too. He may have been a murdering dictator, but at least he didn't drive in his car with his 3 year old child in his lap. Or no, no wait, let the child fall out of the highchair and get a concussion.

So, it is bad, to be proud to be compared to Hitler?