This is my banner on most message boards that allow a signature. 

I've got a bug to write . . . I'll be sharing something soon.

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

When she left us, she gave her angels . . .

She never existed, yet in one man's heart she did.  She was a reality.  Reality with a name.  These angels watched over him, because he had none of his own.  From time to time these angels manifest themselves in ways that even he can't see.  And there are times, when too late, he realizes this.  These angels in a different form.

She lives in his heart.  And these angels have helped him come to grips with life as it is.  Although he had wished to manifest her in human form, the fates decided otherwise.  This beautiful one was not to be.  While at the same time he would see her everyday, in the eyes of another.  For a while it hurt him so to see what he could not have.  But he realized that life isn't always what you want it to be, and god likes to play cruel jokes.  But once he got past the bitterness and the hate.  Past the drinking and the grudges, he understood.

No matter if he was jealous of he was angry, life has given him two great gifts.  These gifts to him . . . Even when he was fucking high.  They are beautiful gifts, it's true.

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

Not much to share, but I liked this picture.

I plan to share some more pictures of the boys and some of their trips to the zoo soon.

I just have to get them all ready.

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

It is going on two years now.  And friends too many to list have been made.  But many of them friends have left.  Gone on to do things that are important to them.  Things that beckon.

I have found that there is less and less reason for me to be here.  Yet at the same time, I can never accurately predict my own actions.  But for the same reasons as many . . . it's just not the same.

In December of 2005, I found out just what a weblog was.  In that I wanted to reach out to people that shared my interests . . . mostly comic books.  Since then my weblog has become something entirely different then what I intended it to be.  In some aspects that could be a good thing.  I may not have met a lot of the people that I did, had I stuck with my intentions.  Mariamusic was my first commenter.  And I remember it vividly.  But she has gone.

Miss Donuts, Miss NightBug, my boy Shane, Miss Christine (Hetzie), my world domination counterpart, Seven, and many many others.

Change is inevitable and useless to resist.  Just today I made the decision to put my comic collecting on hold for more important things.  Something that I have been doing in my life for almost 15 years.  The only thing to exceed this is my addiction to alcohol.  So you can see where the attention needs to be.

I have found other forums in which to share my love for comic books, and I will admit, it is a great part of why my posting here has decreased from where it was.  But it's not just that.  It's like remembering high school and then going to your 10 year reunion.  It's not the same.  Things change and so do people.

"I never meant to cause you any sorrow.  I never meant to cause you any pain.  I only wanted one time see you laughing.  I only want to see you laughing in the purple rain."

This song has meant so much to me in my life both past and present.  I wanted to share it with you for what must be the thousandth time.

Life is change, and change has to happen for life to continue.  If change does not happen then life ceases to exist.

Until the next post, my friends . . .

Ha!  I finally did it.  Why I don't know, but I effin did it.  I watched a movie.  Not just any movie.  But a movie that the state of Oklahoma felt the need to ban all sales of in it.  Yeah, you ban something, you pretty much might as well tell the world that they need to watch this movie.  And that movie?? . . .

So here I am thinking that this movie is going shake the foundation of my being.  Like it is going to change my perspective of God, Jesus, and Christianity.  Kind of like how Ju-On changed my perception of owning a two story house.

But no.  Alas, it was just a good movie.  I liked it well and all.  I don't usually like "religious" history movies, but this I had heard so much about, that I felt that this was one of those movies that a person should see in their lifetime.  So I did watch it.  If you care, here are my thoughts on it.

Jesus was a perfect man yes, because only a perfect man would make a suitable sacrifice to replace the original sin of Adam, who was a perfect man too.  But, being a man, he was also, although perfect, still susceptible to human traits and desires.  Maybe he didn't want to die for mankind's sins.  He wanted to live like all men do.  He wanted to marry, raise children.  Eat, drink, have sex, all the things that at least make being human fun.

So for Jesus to take Satan's final temptation, was nothing more than human.  Granted he didn't commit a sin, by taking this temptation (as I see it), because he had the choice to die for man's sins or not.  If Jesus' hand was forced by God, it would have negated the sacrifice, because it had to be by choice, to cover the sins of Adam.  So, maybe he didn't do what he should have done, but he didn't do anything that wrong.

The ending of the movie, however did perplex me.  I am sure that is why it was made the way it was.  There is uncertainty if Jesus did in fact take Satan's temptation and lived out his life with a wife (two?) and children.  But as the Romans marched on Jerusalem, and the apostles that were still alive came to visit him, he realized that it was Satan that had tricked him into living out his life instead of sacrificing his life for mankind.

OR . . .

Jesus never left the cross and it was all an illusion from Satan in his mind.

Either way, I think what makes the movie so adamantly despised by many is that in this interpretation, even though Jesus still follows through and sacrifices his life for mankind, it shows his weaknesses as a human.  Why that should be looked down on, I don't know.  Because obviously none of us have any room to talk.

Anyway, that is what I thought of the movie.  I liked it, and I am glad I watched strictly for the basis of what the movie was trying to say.  Because to me, the more human that Jesus was, the more I can respect what he gave up for himself so that he could make the sacrifice for man's sins.

Trivia:  Who is this? (The actor).