I'm afraid that one day, death will come to me and I will not know what to do. He may look at me and tell me that the time has come for me to move on. But I don't know what to move on to. Death seems to be the end. The end of all things.

I know that many people and cultures have different views of the afterlife. They may all vary, but they all have one of some kind. Whether it be something as different as reincarnation or Nirvana, all of them have an afterlife. Why? Well no one wants to end their existence. We all want to believe that there is something waiting for us after we are visited by death. No one wants to just die.

But what if that is all it is. Just death. How do we know that there is something after death? All the people that couldn't attest to the validity of an afterlife are dead. So how do we know?

This is where some people would say that faith comes into play. But to me that just seems like an easy way to avoid the subject. "If you have faith then you will not fear death." But that's a blanket statement that could really be used for anything that does not want to be addressed. For to have faith means that you believe that there is some high power that will reward them with an afterlife if they were a "good" person. But the degrees to which different cultures and religions label as a "good" person, then leaves a person to wonder what they really need to do to guarantee themselves a reward after death. So we are really still not sure. Because there is no clear cut rules as what a person needs to do in order to recieve this reward.

Then there is the simple fact of having to have faith. After all faith isn't like something that one is born with, like two eyes, ears, and hands. It is something that someone must find themselves. But how do find that? Is it something that some people just won't ever find? And if that is the case, then what are we to do?

This Tuesday I have to get on an airplane for a flight to Houston, TX for my job. I don't like flying. It scares me. The thought of being that far up off the ground just isn't normal or kosher. But it is a requirement, and the fact that I haven't tried to back out of it yet, just makes the consequences of doing that now, that much worse. But I am so fearful that I will land smack on the ground before we make it to the destination, that the plane stewardess will be doing nothing but walking back and forth bringing me jack daniels. But that is not the answer either, for I am just avoiding my fears, by trying to drown them.

My other fear, which isn't quite as complex is those damn spiders. That is easy to deal with, just don't go around them, right? Haha, but the damn things still get in my house. Ah well, what can you do? I'll just keep an eye out for them.

What should I do?

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

"Hey you guys wanna get high?" "No, god-dammit Towelie we don't wanna get high!"

Do you ever feel that there is something just outside of your reach that is keeping you locked inside yourself, keeping you from reaching out for what it is that you are looking for?

Many times it is we ourselves that put up barriers. Whether it is against ourselves or others, it limits our enjoyment of things and life.

Many time we know what it is that is limiting our joy, but we can't let it go. We know that if we did, we would be happier. But the grip is too hard to break.

It is a self-destructive cycle.

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

"My powers have double since the last time we met Count." "Good, twice the pride, double the fall."

I found this doing a google image search, as usual (ohh the great goddess google) and of course of the different ad parodys on this site www.andrewnolan.com this one I had to post as we have our own Captain Morgan here on blogstream. Check out his posts at "Living and Dying in 5/4 Time".

I salute you Captain, with you anything can happen!

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

"Ahh but I was going to go to Tashe Station to pick up some power converters" "You can waste time with your friends when your chores are done."

Now here is a woman that has everything a man is pretty sure he wants in a woman, just by looking at her photos. She had a look and an essence that just did it all. Makes me think about what and why I found the things that I did find attractive and desirable in a woman, after I discovered her. It was much in thanks to "Bettie Page: Queen of Hearts" by Jim Silke. I most excellent biography on the mystrey and mystique that followed Miss Page wherever she went.  There was something about her that seemed so familiar to her fans, yet so mysterious that you just had to learn more.

More, more, more . . .

I scrambled to find more of Miss Page. Photos, books, movies, anything. It was the next best thing to a glass of whiskey (or at that time I think my thing was gin&juice). It gave you a buzz, a high. And there are so many sides to the many poses that Miss Page has done.

 

 

 <----------------There's Bikini Bettie

 

 

There's "The Girl Next Door" Bettie------------------------>

 

 

<----------------There's Elegant Bettie

 

 

Then, there is Mistress Bettie----------------------->

 

So many Bettie Page's and so little time.  She is another example of what a woman can accomplish and the name that she can't make for herself.  Maybe not every woman in a setting such as this, but whatever it is that you set out to do with your life.

And the thing is that at that time, public pictures such as these were unheard of at the time.  This was a pre-playboy era.  Most pictures were sold on the "downlow" as actual nude picture were not acceptable to society.  But such things did not concern Miss Page, and she forged on with her life and then made may things possible for what we enjoy today.

Many might think that is a drastic statement to make, that Miss Page is almost literally responsible for the freedom of sexualy-orientated literature we have in this country.  Now don't get me wrong, there has always been pornography.  But the appeal that Miss Page had to men, is what brought it to light.  And the sultry elegance that she has, showed that nudity did not have to be dirty or vile, it could be beautiful.  So much so that now, she has become an icon of this generation male gender.  Now that is spanning time. 

But I am most happy, as I was not even close to this world when Miss Page roamed the hearts and uhhh . . . of men.  So I leave with this thought ladies . . .

 

You are beautiful.  You are shinning.  You are you.  And there is no one else like you.

 

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

 

"BEEP BEEP!"  (pronounced "meep meep")

 

 

 

Vampiress (female vampires), another example of the role of women in folklore. I tend to think of it as more than tales, and legends. I think a lot of times we limit our minds to the possibilities. We tend to think that something is so far fetched that it can't be true. We limit ourselves. But just for a moment let's think about this . . .

Are you thinking? Okay here we go.

Most of us all are familiar with Count Dracula, the father of all vampires. Through many movies many have depicted the Count. Most famously, Bela Lugosi. You could see his transfixed eyes boring into the minds of his victims. Sending them to trans-like state where they were unable to defend themselves against this evil creature. My favorite, Gary Oldman in Bram Stoker's Dracula, was of the same "gentlemanly" game as Bela was. Set to woo a woman into his fold. But the evil was much more pronounced in Gary Oldman's character (mostly because in the 30's when Bela Lugosi was Dracula, society would not view such things), who tossed a baby child to his hungry "brides" who had just tried to taste Jonathan's (how any woman wants to get that close to Kenau Reeves ewwwww) blood. Dracula and other male vampires, seem to rule with fear and anger. They scare their victims into submission (on a few occasion though, find a woman that is appealing to them; a good anime of that is "Vampire Hunter D")

Vampiress? What is man's one and continuing weakness? Women? Or the ethereal touch of a woman's body? So what is it that a vampiress can give a man that would allow him to let down his guard?

Just a touch . . .
Not much, just a tease . . .
Just a taste of her tongue . . .
The brush of her hair against his neck . . .
The erotic plunge of sharpened fangs, into his flesh . . .

These ideas did not come from nowhere. They had to be brought to someone's mind for them to be what they are today; what some consider a fetish. But what is it about a rendezvous with a woman of such magnitude? Is it something that is inbred in man since time began (or for the Christians, since the start of sin)? Or does it come back to the fact that Adam's pride lost him his companionship with Lilith? Maybe he did like what she was, and what she did to him. But pride was his downfall, and now he can never get back what he turned his face in disgust at.

How is that these tales, seem to reach all the way down to human behavior. Is it that they are devised to explain human behavior? Or is human behavior used to describe these tales. Kind of like who came first the chicken or the egg.

The reason that women have such a power that man will never have . . . and I don't mean like a physical power, as in men are usually physically stronger than a woman . . . I am talking about the power of suggestion. And why does it work for women better than it works for men? Because men give in to that power. A person is only susceptible to such a power by giving into it. Not to say that women never lose control, but more often than not, it is the man that cannot say no to his carnal desires.

That is our weakness and their strength.

But the thing is, there is nothing wrong with those desires. God (or whatever it is you believe) created us with the senses to enjoy such pleasures. He wanted our senses to be erotic and dirty. How else are we suppose to go on as a race? It is the embracing of such things that is our responsibility.

Embrace them. Enjoy them. Cherish them. Indulge in them. And don't ever look back, and I promise you, the next time you want what you want, you just might get it.

I have a vampiress that embraces them . . . and who doesn't love being the "victim" of a beautiful vampiress?

Kate Beckinsale

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

"If I showed some pictures of your mom to some of the guys, she would definitely be boner of the month." "Thanks, I'm flattered."