Don't we all have a magic dragon that helps us as we grow up? Sometimes we forget that friend as our years accumulate. As if as an adult we don't need Puff anymore. We've outgrown him, and discard him for things more interesting. I left my Puff behind. I haven't talked to Puff in many years. I know he's there still looking after me, despite the grudge I have held against him for almost ten years. Puff didn't really do anything, I think it was more me. Puff was a good friend. I had a bright outlook on life and my future. I was happy. But then there was that one day, that I stopped talking to Puff. I didn't love him anymore, I sometimes hated him. We traveled to many places together as Puff taught me about life and love. He taught me many things, that I have now long forgotten. "Painted wings and giant strings" no longer were of interest to me. "His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain . . .without his life-long friend, Puff could not be brave, so Puff that mighty dragon silently slipped into his cave." Puff seemed to have left me, although he was always there, watching out for me. When I thought I had hurt Puff so much that he would never be my friend again, I stopped trying. I forgot about him. Every once and a while, someone says something that reminds me of Puff. I think about talking to him again . . . but I never do. It's hard when you heart has grown cold for so long. It's hard to say your sorry.

My heart is still cold, and I have not talked to Puff yet. Someday, I will forgive him for something he did not do. But until then, I can't talk to him.

I wonder . . .

what will Puff do?

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

Some would do anything for love, without expecting anything in return. The kind that would slit their wrist to see the one they love smile. And happily sit there and bleed to death just to get their attention. Seeing love where it isn't. Or giving love where it is never returned. To look into someone's eyes and only see what you believe is there. To want something so bad that you would sacrafice the person that you are just to get their love, Crawl on the ground just to walk where they did. To be in their presence. To give all and give nothing so as to get nothing in return and yet everything. A love so well thought out that the foundations are built on a shaky heart. They would kill. They would steal. They would die. Sometime love can be made from nothing. But more often than not, nothing is made into love. A feeling, an expression, a gesture. Read into too much. But it is only human. We all long to be love and cherished. And so the words spill out, like a bloody wound. Running down your body, staining your skin and leaving a mark that can so easily, yet so hard to wash away. Blood stains. Love stains as well. Just like blood it is necessary. And both love and blood wounds take time to heal, and yet they both leave a scar. Alcohol thins the blood, and so rightly does it do the same to love. Thins it until your love runs through your veins so thinly that you take for granted it is there. Never giving heed to the damage that it is doing to your heart, to your body, When your heart hurts, your body feels the pain. Your body take the hurt and it slowly deteriates. Love can be the wonderful thing that brings light to your world, or it can bring so much darkness to your soul, that you can't even find it, in the most brilliant light there is. And so we stumbled forward in this dark world of love and anguish. Hopeful that one day the pain will stop. But it won't because if love doesn't cause pain then it is not real love. Romance and love are like dark and light. You can't have one without the other, and you need neither to have either one. Remember that love is what makes your heart beat, and yet without love your heart would beat, it just wouldn't beat with the tempo of love. Your heart is what makes the body live. So can you live without love? And what kind of love does it need? You feel the cold feeling of loneliness when there is love in your heart, and you don't know why. Love is necessary and yet a luxury. So let your body bleed. For love comes not without a price. And if it is a little blood that is the cost for love, then let me spill my blood on the ground. For without love, I wouldn't be me. And if she couldn't make love out of nothing at all, then I wouldn't have love at all.

Can you make love out of nothing at all? Will you bleed for love?

What would you do for love?

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

What would you do for your children? What wouldn't you do for your children? Sometimes wonder what consitutes being a good father. You have to be there for them at all times, and supportive no matter what. Right? I mean not even death should stop you. But how often do we as parents really support our children no matter what? I mean things change so much from generation to generation, that by the time our children reach that age, we don't know up from down, as to what our children are thinking. But is that some kind of deficency on our part as parents? Or is it just that times change and the children of that generation change with it? What I am going to do as my child grows up? I wonder if the things that my parents worried about are still going to be an issue. I wonder. At what point do you let your children live their own lives? When do you let them start being responsible for the decisions they make it their lives? I wonder.

What will I do?

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

Another Sunday, and another weekend almost gone. More laundry done, dishes washed, floors cleaned, and toys picked up. To bad it all be ready for me again next weekend. Haha, the joys of parenting.

Anyway, what to say? After all, what don't I ever say? Well maybe sometimes I don't know what to say. So I'll talk about the one thing I do know -- comics.

The Thanos Quest #1
Published by Marvel Comics
Written by Jim Starlin
Pencils by Ron Lim
Inks by John Beatty
Colors by Tom Vincent



The story starts as Thanos visits the Mistress Death. Previous to this story (in Silver Surfer Vol.3 #34&35) Thanos had vowed to destroy half of the population of the entire universe, to show his love for the Mistress Death. Well upon his arrival at the Mistress Death's domain, he is confronted by one of her cohorts, who has a little less faith in Thanos, then the Lady Death. Well despite the little worm's lack of faith in Thanos' abillites, Thanos tells Death that he needs to seek out the tools by which he can focus his power, and in the end accompish the goal that he promised Death.

They are the six Soul Gems. Each hold a different aspect of reality. The Soul Gem is first. Now in the possession of the In-Betweener. A being of both light and dark, chaos and order. In order to retrieve the gem from the In-Betweener would require whit and guile. After all the In-Betweener tends to think of himself as more that he is. Appealing to his ego, Thanos vowed his alliegence to the In-Betweener for the Soul Gem. Of course after getting what he wanted of course, Thanos just bitch slapped him and went on, leave the In-Betweener to suffer judgement for losing the gem, from his creators Lord Chaos and Master Order.

The second Gem -- the Power Gem. The Power Gem was in possession of one of the universal Elders, Champion. The Champion however in the area of intelligence was not hard to outsmart. You see the Champion prided himself in battle and being a true warrior. However Thanos was not concerned with such trivial things. His only thought was getting the Power Gem from the Champion at any costs, clean or dirty. Well to say the least Thanos antagonizes Champion to the point that Champion releases so much of his power to try to defeat Thanos, that he destroys the planet that they were on. In the aftermath, Champion is stranded in space, where Thanos is safe aboard his spacecraft. Champion pleads for help, but of course, Thanos refuses, unless . . . and so Champion gives up his Power Gem to Thanos, in exchange for Thanos bringing him to another planet.

The third gem -- Time Gem. This gem grants the wearer to actually control the streams of time. This owner of the Time Gem, was the Gardner, also an Elder. But for this one, Thanos truely was not happy about what he had to do, for the Gardner meant no harm to anyone. He had absolved his connections with the other Elders after he had gained the Time Gem. For the Gardner only wanted to grow his vast beautiful garden in peace. But Thanos needed the Time Gem and so he was at odds with the Gardner. And so the Gardner was defeated, and now Thanos had 3 of the 6 Gems that he needed.

Will he fulfill his quest? Stay tuned for The Thanos Quest #2.

May U Live 2 See The Dawn

Ya'll here about how much I like my beer and how much I likes my whiskey. Some people would attribute the addiction of alcohol to ones genes or chemical makeup. Which to a certain degree, I can agree with. But not in the extreme. I couldn't say that that is the only factor in an addiction. For wouldn't that have to apply to all tastes, whether they be addictions or just preferences in food and the such. Would that apply? Would that even apply to things like preferences in the oppostite sex? You know the things that make a member of the opposite sex, attractive to us. I mean if genes and chemical makeup are to be responsible for things such as this, then what responsiblity lies on the person themselves? Does these things then absolve a person of moral responsibilty to themselves and other people?

Another thing they say is enviroment or family history (which is kinda like genes). But that is just saying that you have an excuse because your father was an alcoholic, or your mother was anerexic sp?. So where does the responsiblity start with the person and the choices they make in life?

I always thought that the choices one makes in life are what make a person that person, not the choices of others. After all, you are who you are because you are you. No one can change that in all the choice they try to make for you. In the end no matter what happens to you, you choose how you let those events effect your life. Blame can only be placed on outsides sources so many times, before a person must take responsibilty for the things that they do, and do to other people.

But there are so many disorders, social dsyfunctions, mental problems, hereditary traits, substance abuse, and enviromental factors; that mankind has gotten to the point that they have an excuse for every action that they do. I mean you know what gives a man an excuse for abusing his wife? Well duh! His dad beat his mother. That therefore, constitutes a "forgivness" so to speak as to the severiaty at which such a person should be punished. As if you need to give a sick son of a bitch like that, any leeway in the matter. But yet we do. We consider that that "poor" man had to watch his father beat his mother, and so he knows no better, because of the example that his father set. You? I don't know about you, but I think that's a bunch of shit! But yet it happens, someone commits a crime such as that and there are considerations when making their sentance.

I touchy subject, but should be considered in this topic. How many times are there "circumstances" that allow one of the sickest (not THE sickest, but mentioning this should shed light on THE sickest) crimes and those who commit them to many times escape the punishment that they so deserve. Many times there are circumstances, that because of law, get these criminals off the hook. I've never understood how any law could come along and help rapist. One of the worst. And I know someone in my life that has unfortunatly been subjected to such a horror. Is the man in jail? No! Is he dead? Not by my hands yet. Hopefully karma will come around and the fucker will get his.

But at any rate, I guess the point is, our society seems to give people an excuse for everything that they do. How many times have you heard it be said that "I was drunk . . . " and I did this and that, as if your decision to drink more than you should had, excuses your behavior. That happens too many times for my taste, and I like my beer and whiskey.

This may just be me, but that is how I think of things. There seems to be a problem with humankind. I can't see that all these things seem to excuse people for what they do. We try and raise our children with responsibility for what they do, and then they get in the adult world and see what really goes on. And on top of that, not that I don't like the country that I live in, but in most other counrtries this shit wouldn't fly.

I don't know why it is I bitch some much, find all the things that are wrong with man and this country. It's not like there are not good things about living here and being a part of the human race, I just tend to find the bad things and make a point of it. But as it is, this is how I see things and I wish that someday I might be able to be different.

So I guess the whole point is, watch what you do, because even if man doesn't hold you accountable, someone will, whatever higher force you believe in.

What will you do?

May U Live 2 See The Dawn